Sometimes I love to blog. There are all kinds of things to blog about: when interesting things happen, friends and family come into town, Layla says something hilarious, I feel strongly about something, or simply have a few great pictures to share. But other times I despise my blog, and am tempted to shut it down in a fit of contemptuous rage.
When a few days, or even a week goes by without a new post I think nothing of it, but when I get to about the ten day mark I start feeling like I've neglected something (which I recognize is completely ridiculous, since only four people read my blog anyway and would hardly bat an eye if it got bought out by J.P. Morgan Chase bank and suddenly ceased to exist). I've even been known to put "update blog" on my to-do list, where it hovers between "buy stamps" and "fix pool vacuum cleaner", trying desperately to be more important than it actually is. I am overcome by guilt. I usually rewrite my to-do list every couple of days as it gets littered with crossed out items, new tasks, and things that I let slide so long they become completely irrelevant, and each time I rewrite the dreaded phrase "update blog" a bit of my contrition is replaced with scorn.
After about three weeks the guilt entirely gives way to self-loathing. I am disgusted that my life is so completely uninteresting that I haven't had a single experience or conversation or taken a single picture that I am compelled to share with the aforementioned four people. Sometimes I stare at my computer trying desperately to think of something clever to say, and am occasionally even tempted to make up a funny story about my kids, just so I can remove it from my list and get on with my life. When did my blog become the tell-tale heart???
It is possible that I am blowing this out of proportion to an obscene degree. Maybe I need more sleep.
3 comments:
That's funny. I felt that way when I started blogging... and I occasionally feel "guilty" for not doing it, but I compare it to a journal. The same feelings exist there. I know I'll be happy someday that I did it, and for the most part I enjoy doing it. The thing I hate the most is uploading all the pictures!
I agree with Stacie A. Also, my kids love looking at the blog. They love to see what I write about them.
it's a horrible addiction. Did you know there is a company called blog2print? Yep, they lay it out all nicely so we can save it one day and show our kids.
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